Meanwhile I have become a finalist in a beauty pageant and I am representing Brighton as Mrs Brighton. I have embraced my new role and have been shaping up in every way to get ready for the final.
Here I am trying on frocks with the assistance of beauty queens.
Also
I'm performing Northern Soul at Jacksons Lane, London on the 2nd and 3rd March
Details and buy tickets here
It was a bit weird because usually we work quite hectically because of a tight deadline. This time there was no deadline.
For my last show Northern Soul; Ursula started working with me after I had collected over 100 hundred hours worth of video footage, 1000’s of photographs, too many lists and notes to count and objects that I liked.
We spent weeks sifting through it all, editing and deciding which out of the many shows should be made out of the research.
This time we started at the beginning. Well almost, it is in my nature to collect and hoard.
Sometimes we would chat busily, with excitement and scribble diagrams (which really should be better, considering I studied life drawing for 6 years) and then sometimes we would just stare at each other for what seemed like ages. We were thinking of something to say, something to plan, or to play with.
I think we are two people that have our time constantly filled, without a moment to spare. We don’t really know how to be uneventful. We managed to beat the temptation to leave the space and go for a coffee, or the loo, or something, and we persevered with our kind of awkward staring.
I don’t think the staring moments were a waste of time; I think we (definitely I) were learning not to feel guilty. I for one have always felt a huge guilt that I am not working hard enough, not being productive enough. When in actual fact that stupid guilty feeling is probably putting a great big Berlin wall of a blockade up.
This year I am going to be staring a lot.
